If I died on this plane I would hope that it would disintegrate in the air And I would freeze And my iPod would be reduced to powder all over the california coast

if/or/when a wolf

okay, so I think I’ve figured it out:
i am a man, and although I think differently,
it seems that I still am part wolf.
otherwise I have run out of ideas. 

evidence being that a wolf
will bellow or snap or snarl
or show his teeth
mostly cause he doesn’t understand/is confused.
that is how I feel when I do
aforementioned wolf things

not a werewolf, those are a figment
i am a true shape-shifter
a real house-wolf
a confused boy when I snap out of
wolf-mode.

2/26/2011

Lol not a raid
Just cops
Reg cops
Fat old hilarious cops
Ones that were cool and smoked mad cigs
Little whiny asshole ones
Big sassy black ones

They came in and said ‘what is this is this some sort of commune?’
and we said ‘lol’
They knocked on our doors and told us to ‘get the fuck out.’
and we did and they looked at the IDs.

But I didn’t, I walked out the back
or the front, really
Thought I have ‘something to protect.’

Before that, I may/may not have been
Harriet Tubman
the drinking gourd is the back/front door
For those who are not old enough to drink adult drinks.
Said ‘Go left.’ and they ‘went right.’ 

PLATZKART STOWAWAY

THIS IS A STEEL HORSE
THAT IS PULLING ME ALL OVER RUSSIA WITH DRUNKS
AND TRAIN MOMS

THERE ARE BIG INDUSTRY BUILDINGS
AND ABANDONED SOVIET ONES

I HAVE BEEN READING MANY BOOKS

I WISH I WERE WRITING LETTERS
OR ANYTHING FOR THAT MATTER

I OFTEN CLOSE MY EYES AND SEE NOTHING
THEN I DREAM AND IT IS WEIRD 

Река Томь: зима

This is the closest thing to white without being artificial. 
until your eyes adjust all you see is white separated by a few gray horizontal lines at various distances
and then a few small vertical brown growths from what used to be the ground. 

the gray horizontal lines congeal into bursts of vertical growth
genetically, not seasonally white.
biome indicators

the white isn’t smooth, though
there is a definition to it
like lumpiness
a minor topography
dips down in the middle
where the river was
rises again on the other side

the sky is cloudy and therefore it means it is only slightly darker
than all of the other white. it shares a reverse topography with the ground
in atmospheric lumps.

Girard Freeloader pt. II

He said I’m not sure what I am and she said that’s okay
so he said something like great and she said what do you really Iike
and he said music or something and she said you’re the best pumpkin here
and he liked her skeleton and said something like you’re my favorite and then
they went home and everything was fine.

So she said let’s hang out and be productive so she read his book
and he cleaned his floor and she was reading on his bed and he
was cleaning. Everybody else was outside

He said I like you and he meant it. She probably knew.
They had recently started dating.

Girard Freeloader pt. I

I said hi and she said hi and I said lets hang out
and she said yeah and I said where and she said dunno
so I said okay and she said lets get beer and go to a park.

I said which park and she said I don’t know this is fishtown
and I said I used to live here and let’s go to the fireman park
so she said okay and we walked there and we drank beers.

I asked what does Russia mean to you and she said I don’t know
and I said Siberia is important to me and she said really and I said yeah
we drank the beers and then she said let’s walk back and then Jay came home
and I said let’s hang out with Jay and she said okay.

Jay asked what we were doing and I said hanging out and she said
my name is Vika and he said my name is Jay and then we talked about fighting
and then I said we should go and Jay said okay and we left
I said I had a great time and she said me too. 

San Jancinto pt. I

this desert has a lot more brush than I would have imagined

I drove past the houses without running water
knew this cause I saw
the tank
where they refill their tanks

slow, low dust
stopped after the last house where the dog barked
and the kid waved 

the road ended and I found a hill, walked up it.
there were snake holes everywhere
and by that I mean there were holes in the ground
and some snakes could probably fit inside
and drew that conclusion 

there I sat and sunburned
the wind made my mandolin whistle

there were mountains on all sides and some were taller than others
there were no clouds and the sun was very hot
the humidity was low so I didn’t sweat

I looked at the horizon and tried to think about meaningful things but
no meaningful thoughts came out.
just things like:
‘this is the first time I ever saw wild cactus’ 

so I drove out and the dog barked at me again as I drove by.

last night I collided with a telephone pole
at ~12 mph
after a car grazed me
and I could hear my wheels grinding against the curb 
and put my hands up and hit a telephone pole with my body.

now my knee is swollen and I limp when I walk but was thinking that
a chronic limp might be the ‘look’ I’m going for. 

RULES CONCERNING A RETURN TO THE ORIGINAL FORM (EXCANINE):

It is no longer a dog/wolf when it know longer walks on four feet/paws or identifies with vagrants/strangers and is essentially accepted/implemented by society/other people.

It is therefore what is was before. a reversion, a backmirror. It retains the memories of all previous states